2009年6月25日 星期四

造化弄人!!!!!

"好男人要不是Gay,要不然就是已經結婚"



我不能同意更多了...

以前認為的那些想法,總是在遇上了之後才發現自己原來根本不了解自己!
我一直以為我會喜歡年紀比我小、會依賴我讓我感到滿足,但也會哄哄我陪我說話的人
一直到最近才發現...
哪個女孩不喜歡安全感呢!!
充滿自信、成熟穩重的幹練,和溫柔貼心的善良
偶爾的孩子氣在這種情況下則變成了生活上的調劑
這樣不是幼稚,是讓人忍不住會心一笑的童心未泯
即使有點吊兒啷噹或者是幾句嘴上不饒人
也頓時沒有了負面的涵義,而顯得幽默風趣和遊刃有餘的從容
大人...
就是這樣的嗎?


緣分很奇妙,造化卻也總是弄人
我累了......

2009年6月21日 星期日

Summer*

Summer 2009 thus far is treating me pretty well
I did my hair (it's all nice & smooth & shiny noww :D love it!)
met up with my lovely close friends (屁孩幫) for a few times
(hopefully i will see other cuties as well and yeah, i'm sure i will be seeing 屁孩幫 a lot)
had a couple of family dinners already
and most importantly, get my internship settled and ready to start tomorrow!! woot!
all these happened within the first half week of life in taiwan!!!!
quite amazing huh :)

however, a side effect of having all the fun / seeing lots of old friends crammed in a short period of time is that I actually feel kind of restless.
not like physicall; more mentally unrest.
after getting into college and having to start thinking about future career, intern, part-time jobs etc, each of us have different errands and different schedule
it's harder to have time to hang out with those lovely kids... at least it's harder than last summer or the summer before.
last summer my grandmother past away; the summer before i was supposedly preparing for SAT. both summers were supposed to be pretty busy, but i can still somehow manage to play around.
however, i felt different this summer.
i feel more responsibilities and more obligations in my internship, and in many other stuff- spending time with family members, learning more talents and things, hanging out with and getting to know college friends who are relatively new to my life more, etc.
furthermore, even though it doesn't seem like much a difference before, but as we all became college students and more engaged in our personal things.
seriously, all the time i wasn't in taiwan really matters.
i missed out on lots of things, and they are not easy to compensate.
however, i need to realize the fact that eventually, i will be come more engaged in the life in US...these lovely kids, no matter how much i love them, would eventually become a minor part of my life. no matter i wish it to happen or not.
i know this is eventually going to happen. and i think we are all starting to get a taste of it--can we still maintain our intimate friendship even if we can't see each other/ even talk to each other frequently? can we still be as close without feeling the need of trying to satisfy some certain things? is the bond between us tight enough?
i have faith in myself. i have faith in you guys as well.

"真的很開心可以又聚在一起
雖然感覺今年大家都有其他必須要做的事情
好像不太能跟去年一樣天天膩在一起(??(去年真的很可怕
不過該完成的預定還是一樣都不能少啦wwwwwww
不管怎樣請好好享受這個暑假XDDDDDDDDDDDD
不要在跑趴囉(就說沒有了"

thank you!!!!!!

2009年6月6日 星期六

xxx

不能再老是期待別人來點醒我
來幫我 來哄我 來拉我一把
我想我看到了
或許 其實我並不是不會看, 只是我總是逃避去思考 去面對?
這次不躲了
我要面對.

2009年6月3日 星期三

????????

有時候在想
自己一直堅持到現在的許多看法、信念和做人處事的態度
是不是其實都是一場空、一場錯?
我所認知的世界,是否其實本質是完全不同的?
得不到自己想要的東西,是不是因為一直有什麼出錯了而我渾然不覺呢?

先不談這個!
I'd like to make a to-do list for summer as well ^^ (inspired by Claririce!!)

  1. Internship
    應該是這summer最重要的事...
    由於親友的幫忙..有幸能到Academia Sinica 的實驗室實習
    希望自己能夠多加學習~!!
  2. Driving Lesson
    目標是在暑假結束前學會開車+考台灣駕照!!
    &&回美國趕快考到美國駕照~
  3. Cosplay
    這半年很久沒有從事這項我很喜愛的活動了~!!
    還有許久沒見的朋友們^__^
    當然,從這項之後連帶的就是Make up && Hair styling && Sewing
    超興奮喔☆
  4. 琵琶 / 古箏
    不用多說X) 該繼續的還是要繼續:)
  5. Raggae
    一直很想學的Raggae dance!! 希望這暑假有機會能接觸些皮毛囉^^
    人生就是要浪費在夢想實踐!
  6. Drawing / Designing / Writing
    上大學後就中斷的藝術/人文創作
    希望有機會可以重新catchup...
    多看好書、欣賞好作品、激發新創作靈感
    精神糧食是很重要的 =)
  7. Connections with friends, old or new
    不論是從出國後就漸漸疏遠的國中朋友 or 聚少離多(?)的Cos圈朋友 or 上大學後較少連絡的高中朋友 or 大學的新朋友~
    大家有在台灣的話,就讓我們好好享受夏日時光吧!!!
    我一直都為自己過去的相對消極感到遺憾~ 也向自己發誓要改變這點^_^!!
  8. Being with family
    嗯. 希望我愛的人們都不孤單 :)...
  9. Kitchen / Cooking Skills && Housework
    我的目標是要當個賢慧的過動兒啦(大笑)
    讓自己多一點生活上的sense吧!!
  10. 健康美麗的 Lifestyle
    這項包括了 減肥+改善生活作息+調整飲食習慣+強健體魄(?)+心靈力量 etc...
    "美麗"的定義是一種態度,一種對自己負責的態度
    我想每個生命都是該要健康而美麗的!
    這件事已經說要做了很久..卻一直拖延著沒有開始
    我會加油 ^^
I think ten things are enough ...way too many maybe? LOL
I will add more to the list if I think of any ^^
&& everyone please help check the result of my work in next fall loh!!!!

2009年6月2日 星期二

夏風吹起

今天天氣終於難得地放晴了...!!!
一陣陣涼爽的風捎來夏天的手信~
讓人很想唱首輕快的歌 :)
暗示著挑燈夜戰苦讀的日子即將結束,接下來是挑燈夜戰玩樂的開始!!
(不良示範!!)
前鎮子Luke北加的朋友Morgan來玩~昨天Thomas Ariel的表妹Daphne也從北加來訪
一大群人就跑去一家新的餐廳"冒險"
多久了? 多久大家沒有這樣一起吃飯了?
感覺經過了很長一段迷迷糊糊的時間
很高興最後大家還是能坐在一起吃飯打屁
就暫時不管其他的事了...
我很享受昨晚的快樂與滿足:)


~你說的每個笑話我都笑了 是你變幽默還是我變快樂
好久不見你說我大不相同 偷偷告訴你 我的心去整型了
不想對每件事都那麼嚴格 弄得全世界好像只剩挫折
愛一朵花不猜它能開多久 放寬的心情 把什麼都變美了

想要光著腳丫在樹上唱歌
好多事物全被縮小了
心裡不想放的就去了算了
讓太陽把臉龐給曬得紅通通
想要吹著口哨在樹上唱歌
要像開往遠方的火車
可以那麼輕快地穿過山洞
大樹上還很空 你要不要陪我~
---郭靜 在樹上唱歌~