我的心真的受傷了

無言囉

　

ㄑㄏㄋㄒ

我自己知道 "事出必有因"
從別人的身上我終於看清自己過去有多矛盾
簡直是又要牛兒好，又要牛兒不吃草...

但說真的
人做任何事情一定都是"有目的"的
差別只在於，這個目的是出於心計、還是心情

即使我說是出於心情
會被相信嗎

一再告訴自己不可以
但果然我的自制力還是太差了
一步一步
似乎已經不是我想說一句"算了"就沒事了

我已經做好再次受傷的心理準備了
在結果揭曉之前請容許我盡情放肆吧...

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今天對話
發現不再有悸動了

我不想忘記你
所以我會記得快樂的部份
過去所有不開心
不知為什麼就算努力想也想不起來

最後

還是任由放空出遊的眼神　呆滯的

想起那一天　很禮貌很誠懇　把微笑都帶著

一連串的故事　我們會討論　瞎鬧著

身邊來來去去　最後剩幾個　知心是真的


不是我多愁善感　也不是怨天尤人

愛情和麵包的梗　還真的能通用能發生能證明　你是對的


謝謝你們　那些愛過我　傷害過我的人

成長的路　總是需要快樂悲傷的犧牲

不怕挫折　我也不怕結局結尾太殘忍

只要活著　還能說著　這一切都不算什麼

謝謝此刻　那首曾經讓我感動流涕的歌

獨自一人聽著哼著　學會了成全捨得

我不怕苦　我只怕這回憶　想起太美了

一眨眼了　時間不等人　我們都成了那所謂的大人

－－謝和弦‧我們都成了大人

　

自我反省??

戰勝不了的心魔....



can I?
can I still have another talk with you?
I need guidance....

Long time no Blog

haha I just realized I havent being blogging for a really really long time...
summer already ended!!!!
***speaking of summer***
a lot happened near the end. well not like something really big or pivotal, but it did change me...
the biggest change to me is hairstyle. I don't know if you feel the same way, but after a major outlook change...you just feel different!! like...like all renewed!!! haha or maybe it's just me?
and 超突然想到 梁詠祺的歌
"我剪短了我的髮~ 剪斷了分岔~ 剪一地不被愛的分岔"
idk i kinda feel like i really did forget about some old stuff after i cut my hair short
haha. I'll take it as a good change.

***speaking of new school year***
uh yeah. basically UTA took up all my time.
its fun though ^^ i'm glad that all the officers are chill ppl and its easy to work with them.
and i met a bunch of new kids during orientation and stuff
we got kinda close this passing weekend. they are really chill kids and very easy to get along with. yeah no doubt i love them.
but idk. i still feel....WEIRD.......
its realy awkward to be called 大姐....like if you know me, i'm the last person you would call 大姐
我超膽小、又愛哭、又迷迷糊糊的
haha and i enjoy 塞ㄋㄞ connie mommy!!!!!!*stare*
but i guess it should be a good point to start learning 獨立自主 and stand strong by my own!!!!!
...wow.
i feel so different now. LOL
so thats basically it.
oh and. classes are bitches i would never like them.

***speaking of tonight***
its 中秋節...
so sorry that i left my brother home and go out dinner with friends...
i did invite him over....but....sigh
and its really really nice....to have hotpot at yovnie's place
soo good....sooo satisfied... soooo home-ish feeling T.T
the theme todays is "being awkward but cute". haha
unfortunately wayne has to leave first for work
and since we dont have anything better to do (sorry i really cant think of any icebreaker games LOLOLOLL) we head out to tea garden cuz everyone was suddenly craving for 奶茶三兄弟
then...we drink tea. chat. play cards. and more talking.
and i sorta have a little sentimental moment. and a really really meaningful talk with ppl...
真的
如果沒有你們在身邊，今天的我就無法站在這裡了...
我會繼續加油的... 有了你們的鼓勵，我又充滿了幹勁！